Happiness

1) Happiness is the feeling and emotion and feeling of joy or satisfaction in finding something you enjoy. Anything small or large can bring you happiness if you only search for it...

2) The definition of my happiness is what I smile and laugh at. I find happiness in my friends and having a good time. My happiness is my sanity, my patience, my family, my friends, and my dreams. I'm happiest when I'm smiling for real and not a fake smile like the forced ones I'm forced to give at work (shh! Don't tell!) and all the different things I find interesting. I find happiness is writing, foreign languages, mythology, history, artwork, and whatever I can get my hands on most of the time. I find happiness in knitting and jewelrymaking also!

3) My friends and family have the greatest influence on my happiness, because they always know just what to say to make me laugh most of the time. My dad's sense of humor always cracks me up, my friends dry sense of humor always gets me to giggle...I just love how people around me can make me smile. It makes me wanna make them smile! ^_^

4)My friends need to be happy for me to find happiness really...If one of my friends is having trouble, I would need to help them find happiness, so everyone can be happy....I seem to be the therapist of my group of friends, they always come to me for advice and to solve their issues. I sometimes have to help my family, and sometimes i am the one that needs my family. I always try to help those who need a smile, if they don't have a smile, they can't be themselves.

5)My greatest need in life might just be my sanity and my happiness...I need to be able to rely on what I want to find the happiness I can get. If I don't have sanity, I can't find true happiness. And if I can't find true happiness, then I can't be sane. If you understand that you get kudos and a big warm plate of cookies (menatally!) of any kind you want!

My question for everyone (by personal choice): Is happiness real? Is it in our heart or in our mind? Are mirrors clear or really black?

Insanity's Revenge

A poem that I wrote...very very dark...warning...umm...Tell me if you like it...I wrote it and it inspired my novel I'm writing....

I didn't scream

...
And that scares me
...
I heard screaming,
But it wasn't mine.
I stayed calm.
I didn't panic
...
Much
...
It wasn't the crash
That made me ponder
My own sanity.
It was the fact
That when it was over
...
I laughed.
No one was near me,
Only me alive.
I just sat there,
As the other person living
Drove off.
I remember their face,
I remember their car,
I even remember
The license plate number,
I could turn them in
For hit-and-run.
But,
Wheres the fun in that?
I know what I'll do
...
I'll find them,
Track them down,
And I'll do to them,
What they didn't finish.
I know,
The entire crash wasn't an accident.
It was a job.
To return the favor
Would be far too sweet.
So I'll make it sweeter,
I'll draw it out,
I'll make him pay.
I sat here laughing,
Covered in blood.
The blood wasn't mine,
I smiled sadly at
The bloody corpse
Next to me.
The seat belt embedded
In my best friend's throat.
That made me realize
...
That they were my sanity.
Now,
I know I'm not
...
And that doesn't scare me
...
Now I know,
It'll be easy.
Ready or not,
Here I come.
You killed
The wrong target,
And you also
Forgot something
...
Me
...
Hitman V.

Assignment #7

1) I really enjoyed writing poetry, because poetry released more emotion towards writing. With short stories you were forced to write about a single thing and you had to stay on topic, if we could run wild with writing short stories I would like that better.

2) My strongest piece of writing would have to be...my poem "11 Ways to Love" because it shows so much emotion and different ways of one single emotion and belief. Poetry is a strong point, since I do have 2 publishing awards for poems I've written, but I really like writing short stories, even ones for a long story that I'm writing personally....It's hard to say...I have over 500 poems written personally...alot have gone missing, but I still know I wrote them. I have alot of inspiration towards poetry and some short stories from my dreams and every day interactions.

3) I learned that I let out alot of emotion in my writing this semester and I sometimes have to be careful about what I write so I don't offend someone... I don't need alot of prodding, I just need inspiration. I find that if I put a pencil to paper or a keyboard in front of me, my writing goes anywhere that my fingers lead it to. I sometimes don't realize what I'm writing until I go over it afterwards. I like being free in my writing...but sometimes structure and direction are needed. Just to keep writing safe if need be...

4) I would like to get into writing non-fiction...maybe some fantasy...but we've probably done that already, but I don't like plays and screenplays. They are so hard to do without someone else helping you or working with you. If we do do screenplays and plays I would love it if we were in groups..and not by ourselves...^_^ If we do non-fiction, I think researching a topic and writing a paper or something on it...I'm weird...I like writing research papers...Maybe music reviews.... I listen to alot of music...that sounds good...I don't like memoirs, but I can deal with it...