Work...*snooze*

Well, I'm at work and I have to wait until 8 to actually start since I have to be here a half an hour early for my sister...

Yes, me and my sister work at the same place, about 20 ft away from eachother...in the same room... Fun, no?

Well, my father is one of the people ment to keep me busy...and Some people might consider him my boss...but that's not true...My boss's name is Chad...yep fun fun

Anyway, I'm just sitting here looking over some old posts of mine and my friends listening to random songs I bought...

OOH! YAY! Bon Jovi!

Anyway, I'm heading up to my cabbin in a few days...Satuday...I don't wanna go...but I have to..yet again...

Maybe I can have an excuse to be anti social...

I'm apoligising ahead of time just incase I use up everyones minutes from calling them all the time! I just need an escape...

Maybe I can convince my parents to let me go into town all the time... I hope we don't go to Black Duck but we go to Bemidiji...for phone service...otherwise we would be having a party at Black Duck since I still remember some of the places there from my childhood...

My very sheltered and repressed childhood that i have few memories of...

I seriously have issues...and my friends better be happy that I don't email them every time I get on a computer here...cause they would probably wanna kill me by the third day...

Maybe I can escape for a bit today to go think...

Last night was alot of fun, I was reminising with Mayme and Sam...(I LOVE THEM!!!) But anyway...I was reminising and after dropping Sam off at home me and Maymes just drove around for a while and talked...I really needed that...and it felt amazing....I feel so relaxed...

I still have about 10 min...so...you're stuck with me...

No one really goes on their blog anymore...so I think i'm relatively safe from having everyone on the planet reading this...including my family and my coworkers...but anyway...

I finally killed off my main character's parents in the story I'm writing! It's the part I've been avoiding for almost a year!!! I'M SO HAPPY IT'S OVER WITH!!!! Life is a party right now...

A party of Sleep Deprevation...

I am so tired...but I can't sleep until next week....GAH! I am sooo gonna kill something if I don't get some sleep tonight...

I've been staying up way to late doing random things...Like reading fanfiction....(*coughcough*) I blame Mayme for my addiction....

At least I convinced her to send me the stories instead of just the link so I can read something without having to visit the sight!! And maybe she'll send me the link to the story along with it so if I like it enough I can fav it...

Well, my family took me tanning...and that was a party... They signed me up for an account at this place since I have no life and it sucks major ass!! I'm bacically stuck doing random shit I don't wanna do...

That's life...

Well, maybe I'll give everyone a break and actually get off the computer...Maybe the coffee is made!!!

YAY!!! CAFFINE!!!

I'M COMING MY LOVE!!!!!!!

BLARGH!

WHOOO HOO!!!!! Sitting in Bio class with nothing to do...My friend Chris Pose is standing behind me doing nothing... LALALALALALALA...

Jakub is a NYYYYEEEEEERRRRRRDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All because he wont give me pictures of Japan! ASSHOLE! Anyway... I feel guilty that I haven't posted in a while... But that's what happens when your life is sucked away from a story about pirates (*cough cough* Akuroku *cough cough*) or having a job...well...life is interesting...

I'll have to post some pictures of Anime Detour... one of the craziest times of my life!

So Long, Thanks For All The Fish!

1) The strengths of the genre are that you never could run out of things to say...I don't really have strengths of the genre, but I know many people don't believe my experiences because half of them seem like stories....My dreams are as screwed up as my dad's fairytales...maybe even worse...I have a weakness with the genre due to the fact that I couldn't pick a topic...I wouldn't know if I would tackle it again...right now all I want to focus on is my Hitman V story (which I worship by the way)...I absolutely love being able to write something like that but anyway...We'll have to see how I did on my personal essay to say how well I did and if I could use improvement....

2) Reading can help the writer find some form of influence..if that is the right word...I know for a fact that after I read something, I wanna experiment with something like that. It makes me want to try new things, it also helps me escape from reality along with my writing. Reading is important also for it because if we couldn't read, we couldn't write! With my writing I always seem to be so into my writing I lose track of myself and where I am. I live in my stories as I write them, but with I stop, I lose my made up world. Reading for me is like eating, I need it to survive...my writing is a way to let out my emotions as my reading gives me an excuse to just get out of my body and focus my mind on something else...it's great for me to relax! Writing is as important as reading because if we didn't write, nothing would be there to read! They go hand-in-hand!

3) My favorite writing piece that I've writen this year...hmm...probably either one of my poems or my second short story...because my poems reflect what I feel inside and let out my emotions trapped in me..also my second short story is part of my Hitman V story so it helped me get out of my writers block! I loved writing it. My favorite genre would have to be fiction or poetry...no doubt..I hate having to write something I don't just get, those come naturally to me so I do what I feel is right and I write. The screen play was the hardest for me to write...probably because of the stage directions and picking a topic...I always seem to have a problem with having to write something that is based off of a specific topic...it's weird...I didn't really care for my first short story because that didn't really help me as a writer and it was a forced topic....I will continue with writing my Hitman V story, and I might need help on some of the specific terms and ways to write it, but I can try!

4) Quiz
Coke or Pepsi: Diet Coke
Li'l Wayne or Little Debbie: Neither
McDonald's or Arby's: Subway
Chiptole or Taco Bell: Taco Bell (I've never stepped foot inside a Chiptole)
American Idol or MTV: Nither, House wins by far!
Buffalo Wings or Florida: Florida, it's warm...
New York City or Los Angeles: Los Angeles, It's warm...
Name you like for your future daughter: Lilith, Luna, or Karina
Name you like for your future son: Vincent Lee Baine
What is or what will be the first country you see outside the continent of North America: I wanna go away! I wanna go to Japan! NIHON!
Disney movie you would be most likely to watch on your 21st birthday: Mulan

5. Can you figure out what Disney movie my blog title comes from? No... Can you figure out the movie I got my title from?

Me and My Pathetic Life...

1) One principle I have that guides me in life...Ummm...I have no idea...probably being true to anything I can...I try not to lie, even if the truth hurts, I try to always tell it. I know I value everything I hold dear and what I care about...If there is anything that insults or mistreats what I love, I will get back at it. I care to much about my friends and family that I would die for them. I don't care what people say to me or about me, I only care about what they say about or to my friends. I guess that is my principle. I protect and value what I love.

2) The thing is...I don't really pay attention to the news...I mean, I know it effects everyone's lives, and there are important issues in hand every day...but I would have to say, that it doesn't effect me that much....I care more about what happens with my friends than what is shown on the news. I don't really care about what people say on the news...Oh! I remember one news story that effected me...I was in it, it was a news story about my church, I was in the picutre about the High School Choir...that's about it for me and the news....I seriously didn't hear about the 35W bridge collapse until at least a day later...I know, it's really sad...But I don't care about the news, because there are more important things I need to do in life than sit around and watch the news.

3) I hope to accomplish....I don't know...My philosophy on life is "What happens, happens for a reason, whatever it is"...There is nothing else to look forward to...I know I wanna try to find a better job...I wanna finish my "Hitman V" story I'm writing...(which is pathetically failing) But that's bacically it...I'm proud of what I have in my Hitman V story..and I'm proud of what I've created...I also hope to not get hurt as much as I did in 2007...but so far...It's failing miserably....I've already hurt myself...playing video games...again...I'm pathetic...I know it...but I guess I have nothing I want to accomplish in 2008...I know...It's really sad...

For You...

1) I know I don't have a problem with writing dialogue, but it is hard for me to write the setting and the characters and the stage directions without more detail. The topic was hard to choose also, with all of the restrictions for the topics of our plays, I couldn't help but panic. I had no idea what to do. I think the way I portrayed my characters was my strength. I loved my characters, they are awesome! Keeping to the plotline and the theme was the hardest with my play, and finding a way to end it. It was way to hard to decide what to do to end it, when I had a completely different version in my head. Twas extremely frusterating. I know I have good ideas for a play, screenplay, drama, or even television scripts, but I have one slight issue...I can't write plays that well...I'm only good at writing stories...

2) I have no idea what I could write for my personal essay, i bacically write somethings like that all the time, but not quite....It's hard to choose a topic in my life, I have such a hectic life that I have no idea what to do! Should I choose to write about my past, my family, my jobs, my hobbies, or my stories...hell, I could even write about my thoughts...It is impossible to choose a topic off the top of my head, so what I write is what I write...That's all that is going to happen...It's too hard to choose what I should do...Why do they have to be so hard to choose for, It really makes me wonder how well I'm going to do writing college essays...I have very few good childhood memories, I can say that I have an emo past, but that doesn't mean that I didn't have happy times...it's hard to decide what I mean.

3) If I could give advice to any 10-year-old kid...well...it would be to be careful with what you do or say, you never know what you might regret in life and what one word can do to someone. Be careful with who you care about, be careful and don't let yourself get hurt, and let's just hope that you don't get as many problems as I have. Don't do anything in your childhood that could scar you forever. Don't grow up to fast, someone might be watching you grow slowly. You always want to be there for someone...You never know how close someone may be to you before you loose them. You have to be careful with who you watch over, and you have to make sure you are careful with who you understand. Be sure to watch over you family, you never know when they might just be hurt, and you want to be protective. Let's just hope that you don't loose your true childish self before it's to late. Don't follow what everyone reads in the news, you don't want to end up like some of the stars today, you want to be your own star and grow to be you. I really hope you don't end up like me, even if you always wanted to be like me, I don't want that to happen to you. I don't want to see you hurt at all. I really hope you find yourself, and love yourself for who you are, I don't want you to be someone else, I want you to be yourself. You would say the same thing to anyone if you were my age, don't be like me, you want to be yourself. Everyone has to find some sort of uniqueness, if not, then the world is the same and there would be no way to grow to be you. I know you have a kind heart, just go with that and be happy. Let's hope you don't fail at something and bring yourself down, just think, you can always to better later, just try and you will succeed.

Impact!

1) The theme in what you write is very important to a peice of literature....If a piece of literature needs a theme for someone to understand what the story is about. I cannot think of something that doesn't have a theme, maybe poetry, but not stories...but I can think of stories that I've read that don't have a plot. It's not that hard to come up with a theme, but it is hard to come up with a plot, that is why many people skip it. To those who think anything you write may not have a theme, maybe you aren't looking hard enough for it, most poetry out there has no theme, I will give you that, but I will not let you get off of having just a simple "It has no theme" answer to any thing you read, just think on this...Does Harry Potter have a theme? If you say no, answer this, do you even know what a theme is?

2) The stories that last over a long time, people could only dream of writing something like that. But, people need to understand, those authors were amazing, they wrote from what they knew some people would like, no they wrote from what they knew alot of people would like. What kept them immortal until now, it would have to be the soul and spirit behind the book. Do you get that? Each book has a soul and/or spirit, something that keeps it alive in everyone. I know for a fact that I would never be able to write such an amazing book, I might be able to write a poem like that, but never a book. I'm not that good of a writer...

3)If I could have one long-lasting impact on the world around me, it would be how much of a person I am...I don't want to be known for who I am friends with, I don't wanna be known for who my family is...I wanna be known for who I am and how much I can change the world. If I am known as a write, so be it, if I am known as a wonderful person, kudos for me. I just wanna die known for who I am and not what I can do. If I could have the chance to make an impact on daily life as we know it, I would love it, it would make me feel like a person, and not just someone that is standing there. I want to be seen in a crowd, and not just one of a million. I am one in a million and the impact that I can make, I want it to be true. I want to help others though what I went though, and to stop others from doing what happened to me. I want to save people and help them though life.

BLEACH OWNS MY SOUL!!!!!!!~111111one

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bleach_(manga) This link bacically sums up Bleach...but I am in love with it! I do have to say it is hard to say no to anything Bleach, and I definately can't say no to anything with Abarai Renji on it! I love that guy!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Renji_Abarai IT'S MY LOVE, RENJI!!! No I am not seriously in love with an anime character...but he is awesome!!!

Yes, I know...I'm weird....but what can I say! I love what I watch! Seriously....just try watching a sword fight without being intersted!